Most often I am walking the line of sheer confusion. That state of confusion usually leads me down a negative path towards believing in lies. It blocks me and cripples me from hearing the Holy Spirit speak truth to me. I begin to allow the enemy a foothold in my life and I start to believe his voice of destruction rather than God's voice of reason.
Why?
It can't just be blamed on "being human." I have no credentials to back this up, but I think that as Christians we are just as susceptible to harassment as any other person that the enemy holds down from living in a relationship with the God who created us. When I begin to over process, over digest, over analyze, I allow spiritual darkness to consume my thoughts. I begin to listen to lies that the world's way might just be "easier" than God's way.
I also think I have to stop trying to "figure God out." If I am going to have faith at all and call myself a Christian, I have to faith IN it all. Faith in the plans he has for me, even when the world around me doesn't make sense. I have to have faith that God's ways are not my ways for a reason that is better than any I can think of.
“My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord.“And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine." Isaiah 55:8
